Ahhhh! My Stylist Relaxed My Hair!
Well, I decided to go to the salon. I sat down in the chair, and my stylist started putting this white stuff on my hair that I thought was conditioner. But I thought something was odd, cause she was parting my hair, and smoothing it out. Next thing you know, it starts burning and she takes me over to rinse my hair, and that’s when I discover that it wasn’t conditioner she put in my hair…it was a dreaded cream relaxer. Y’all I was sooooo sad. All I could think about was how long I had been natural, how in love I was with my naps, and how long it would take me to grow my hair back out. So sad. So incredibly, horribly, sickening sad.
Then I woke up. It was just a dream…well a nightmare really. But it seemed so real. Real enough for me to lay there, in the dark with my head on my pillow and try to get my bearings because I was trying to shake an overwhelming sense of dread at the thought that I would E-VAH have a chemical put on my precious nappy hair again.
It took a few minutes as I tried to shake that sad feeling before I drifted back off to sleep. Usually you don’t remember your dreams, but that one remains extremely vivid to me. I’ve had a variation of that dream at least one other time. And then I also had another hair dream where I was being chased by gorillas through Central Park in New York where every street was Named NappymeHappyme (My full screen name on Nappturality.com aka NP)
Now, as a member of NP I know that over the years, dozens upon dozens of members have reported having that dream. I think the first time I had it was shortly after I had joined the site and began to become totally immersed in the ideas and principals of nappturality as it is defined by the owner and upheld by the members of NP. That said, when I started my relaxer nightmare thread, I was unaware that having that dream is a somewhat common phenomenon among members on the site. Most of us are, quite frankly, addicted to the site and visit NP almost every day. As a result, I believe that for many of us, NP creates an obsession centered around loving, caring for and maintaining our nappy hair that eventually plays out in these relaxer dreams.
For many of us, to one degree or another, we all have struggled with our nappturality. I know I did. And it wasn’t until I joined NP and started to visit it regularly that I came to realize that nappy hair and wearing it is a huge issue for many of us — much deeper than I would have ever imagined.
Sooo then, are these dreams primarily a result of our addiction to this site and our desire to learn to love ourselves and our nappy hair unconditionally. If we’re totally buying into the notion that we are nappy for life and our convictions are unwavering, are we then having these nightmares in order to confront one of our greatest fears. The fear that we might back slide, turn our backs on our natural beauty and go back to living the lye. Could it be that these dreams also serve validate our desire to go natural and reinforce our decision to remain so?
Hmmm… I have really wondered about this for a very long time. I’ve also wondered something else. Now I’ve got some questions for y’all, and I hope y’all particpate cause I am soooo curious about this. If you’re a member of NP, have you had the relaxer dream? If so, did you have have it before you became a member or only after you became a member?
If you’re not an NP member (or you’re a member who visits the site infrequently), have you ever had the relaxer dream? And if you have had the relaxer dream…why do YOU think you had it, and what does it mean?